Dealings with autumn . . .

The weather has been changing lately. One of the things I really love about Colorado is the way the seasons change–nothing like Washington where I was born and (mostly) raised! The sun has taken on a new angle of slanting through our windows, giving the whole world a different tint. At night the smell of woodsmoke permeates our quiet neighborhood. The days are getting shorter; the nights are chilly and crisp. The leaves are barely beginning to change colors. The whole world is changing. My life is changing….

There are a of things going to be changing in my life in the next several months. I will be dealing with circumstances I never dreamed I would deal with before. I will be experiencing new cultures. I will be living in an entirely different setting. I will get to know people in person that I had previously mostly only interacted with online.

I will be stretched. Tested. Tried. Weighed. Will I be found wanting?

“If I was a spider princess, she said, I would spin webs the color of sky & catch drops of sunlight to give to children who watch too much TV & then everyone would remember to come outside to play. If I was a spider princess, she said, things would be different.” -The Story People-

Autumn makes me want to . . . be creative. I feel inspired. I think it is part of the thing also known as changing-season-induced restlessness. But, I’m not restless, per se . . . just, inspired. And yet, I don’t have time to do what I’m inspired to do. It’s a horrible feeling. :P

I don’t like the feeling of being taken advantage of. I don’t like being “used”. I don’t like being falsely accused. I have decided, though, that it is ok. I can deal with it and I don’t need to let myself get bitter and upset about it…I don’t even need to rehash it all in my mind. I can forgive and go on. Really. I can. *keeps repeating it*

My Ladybug Toes (inspired by Rissa) :)

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3 thoughts on “Dealings with autumn . . .

  1. I wish I could be in Colorado for the autumn, fond as I am of our famous New England ones. :) Do you have fields of goldenrod in CO? I shall miss them if you don’t.

    And…it comforts me to know that you have fears, too. It really does.

    *hugs*

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